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Autobiography:

Name: Magz, formally known as Margretta

Birthday: 1st of june 1989

Star Sign: Gemini

Statue: single, but not available

Current saying: negro please!

Currently annoying rant: how fucked up the education system is by degrading english and making us poor students overanalyze every freakin movie, show, book we watch/read. POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!

Secret: I'm a hopeless romantic ^_^ dispite what I may say or do, I'm a sucker for anything lurvveee. Ssshhhhhh... don't tell anyone!

My Sunshines

My Anh <3
Monica <3
Amanda <3
Michelle <3
Wendy <3
Aqueedah <3


Things That Make You Go MmMmMm... (aka interests)


* Writing - Its where I write things I probably wouldn't do or say... ah, who am I kidding? LoLz! Its just where I flex and stretch my talent

* Drawing (though really shit at it, but I can have dreams!)

* Shopping - Its a sport on its own, and very theraputic. You can NEVER have too many accessories! Can I get a hell yeah?

* Playing Pool - I'm actually really good at it. Not to beep my own horn... but... BEEP BEEP! LoLz

* Gossiping and Bitching - Theres nothing like a good gossip session and bitchfest with good friends. Its how girls bond, I advice everyone do it.

* Love Songs - I LOVE love songs. The emotion, the lyrics, the meaning. Ahhh... Its beautiful!

* Spending Time Alone - I know that makes me sound like a hermit, but spending time with yourself is the best! especially because I'm such good company! ^_^

Bold as Love

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Monday, February 07, 2005
Heyz babes!!

How are you all? happy and hearty I hope hehehe. Wow I have like lots to say so bare with me ok? hmm well I’ll start with the obvious:

school started *sigh* yeah I was feeling jst a tad bit nostalgic and I still am but that’s calmed now. William carey is like so different from casula. The teachers are stricter, the people are like… hmm an-y-wa-y lolz nah, they are alright. Not as bad as I thought they would be but then again I’ve only been here for like a little over a week so things could change. But I told them that they should give me a month n then my bitchy side will unleash n they should all fear me mwaahahahahhahaahha!!!

Me, my anh n monica have started to write a novel together hehehe! Isnt that exciting? I cant wait til we finish it, which might be in a couple of years time or whenever we feel the story has come to an end. I cant really disclose the plot (u have to wait n see hehehe ha ha!) but I can tell u is that its gonna be great!

Okies, update about Mr. T. *sigh* seriously, I don’t know what the hell I saw in this dude. I mean every time he talks or asks a question I so feel like bitch slapping him back to the salon for him to be blonde again. Shallow isnt it? Well I don’t care. He should have stayed blonde, then maybe I would have cared more for him but he’s not n I cant do anything about that. so now that we’ve settled the fact that I’m superficial we can move on hehehe. I dunno, I thought he was different u know? But i guess I was wrong. I wrote a character story about that. heheeh I should really update u guys on my story list. Okies here it is (in order of written):


1/ Falling: this is a character study about none other than My Anh. Yes it’s dedicated and written for her.
Snippet: “My other half that I had only seen in my dreams, before I even knew fantasies were so close to reality that the line blurred, smudged, darkened and lightened.” – Falling.

2/ Heat: hehehe exactly what the name states. Its jst a short piece about the effect that hot weather has on two people indoors. A lot of sexual innuendo.
Snippet: “I turn to him. Brown eyes glitter at me, telling me stories I have heard before. I smile and lightly trace the curve in his mouth.” – Heat.

3/ Grey Area: this isn’t a love story, but could be seen that way in a different shade of white. It’s basically about life, death and everything in between.
Snippet: “That maybe you are not the evil I must destroy, or a bastard that needed to be tamed but a lost soul trying to find meaning in a world full of paradoxes. That maybe you are just like me.” – Grey Area.

4/ Secrets: this character study is about me and my lack of privacy when it comes to other people secrets.
Snippet: “You do not even know the right words to say, or when is the right time to say them, if there are any at all. You believe there is no point in you knowing if you cannot help the problem. So you simply listen and then forget.” – Secrets.

5/ Understanding: this is a very short story about the extent some would go to understand someone and the pain some are willing to overtake just to have glimpse of someone who has it all.
Snippet: “His glass collection of what looked like forms is scattered along the wooden floor and everything else is disarray and briefly you wonder if this is how his life is. If it consists of broken dreams and cluttered emotions, but you will never know.” – Understanding.

6/ Simplicity: this is the longest character study I’ve written so far. The story was written for monica but she wasn’t too keen on the sex scene. But in essence the story is still about her- the angel in the story represents monica and her simplicity.
Snippet: “He tastes sweet and sour all at the same time. Is this how all humans taste? Are they all a combination of juxtaposes and irony? Day and night, white and black, life and death.” – Simplicity.

7/ Out Of Reach: though many people like this C.S I don’t really. Its probably because its mostly all true. Its basically about me and Mr. T. *sigh* its kinda sad, that’s why I don’t really like reading it again.
Snippet: “My eyes dart from him to her and I watch in despair as he watches her silently. I know that look of longing he carries, I know that look of sadness he tries to hide, I know that look of fascination he sparkles and, dear God, I know that look of need he is emitting.” - Out Of Reach.

8/ Unrequited: this was written for rosemary. It took a while for me to find the inspiration to write this but I’m really happy with the end result.
Snippet: “She shuts her eyes. Forcing aside the sound of old lover’s voices, the feel of warm skin against hers and dead feelings. He holds her lightly, like you'd hold a ghost, and she wonders who she is when his eyes are closed.” – Unrequited.

9/ Say What You Can: this was written for Ayla. hehehe this story should not be attempted at home. Well this isn’t a smut, if that’s what your wondering. It has a story line and yes it does contain two people in a cinema making out ^_^ but we love that.
Snippet: “Once he had the courage to continue on his own he let go of her hand. She arches her back, sighing in satisfaction when he finally makes her moan. She sounds different. When was the last time I felt like this? She can’t remember. It was too many bottles of Midori and shopping bags ago.” – Say What You Can.

10/ Sick Carousel Cycle: this story, out of all the rest is probably the one I love the best. Purely because this is exactly how I feel, there is no fabrication or exaggeration of my feelings but completely truthful. This is how I feel about P-to-the-B. and out of them all it hurts more to read this one because its all my thoughts and feelings moulded into one to make a short character study explaining the extent of my pain.
Snippet: “My need isn’t a luxury I dare give you. My heart isn’t a prize I will let you win and my love isn’t a toy you will have access to play with.” – Sick Carousel Cycle.

11/ The Object Of My Confessions: this is the most recent one I wrote. Its practically Out Of Reach pt. 2- the end of the Mr. T saga. It wraps up things (for good) and resolves issues with him and i.
Snippet: “He is the unknown victim of my pathetic obsession and my dirty confessions.” – The Object Of My Confessions.


Well those are all my short stories so far but don’t worry, more are in store later on this year. Ohhh and I forgot! I have an announcent to make: *ahem* Picture If You Will is back in action!! YAY!! I put it on hold for a while but now I have inspiration and I’m back in business so expect more chappies to that later on.

Valentines day is coming up. *sigh* I want a boyfriend… no I don’t… yes I do… no I don’t.

He loves me, he loves me not. He loves me, he loves me not.

He loves her, he loves me not. He loves her, he loves me not.

IIII…. Love to love you baby…

Love is a battlefield

Whats love got to do with it?

Hmm right now I’m listening to fallen by Sarah McLachlan. She’s got some hectic deep songs and her lyrics are awersome. Download it!! U’ll like it. I haven’t talked to Jeremy in a while, okies in like the last week but whatever. He likes this chick called Noami. I’m happy for him and it was nice of him to ask me if I minded. I dunno when’s the next time I’m gonna see him actually, we’ll see.

Right now I’m feeling not all here but not all gone. Does that make sense? Like change and prioriting is clouding me, making it so I’m everywhere yet I am no where. I know some other people are going through that too, but as I keep telling myself, this is jst the adjusting period- but I have a feeling this is the calm before the storm.

Alrights song lyrics time!!

Goo Goo Dolls: Long Way Down

Oh here you are,
There's nothing left to say
You're not supposed to be that way
Did they push you out?
Did they throw you away?
Touch me now and
I don't care
When you take me
I'm not there
Almost human, but I'll never be the same

Long way down,
I don't think I'll make it on my own
Long way down,
I don't want to live in here alone
Long way down,
I don't think I'll make it on my own

I never put you down,
I never pushed you away
You're not supposed to be that way
And anything you want,
There's nothing I could say

Is there anything to feel?
Is it pain that makes you real?
Cut me off before it kills me

Long way down,
I don't think I'll make it on my own
Long way down,
I don't want to live in here alone
Long way down,
I don't think I'll make it on my own

I never put you down,
I never pushed you away
Take another piece of me
Give my mind a new disease
And the black and white world
Never fades to gray

And last but not least, a quote that seems to be in my mind lately.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run ;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

Incase you don’t know what it means that’s alright, cos neither do i. hheheh. Bubiaz hunz! I’ll write to you in like a week or two.


MaGz







MaGz [ 8:33 pm ]

2 Comments:

  • damn u got a lot of C.S aye! i haven't got da one of Ayla so send it when u can k?! hahaha dun worrie magz no matter how shallow u r
    i kno it's just toward da male species.. but friends u'll love them anyways! rite? i hope so but sumfin inside of me tellin me i'm definitely wrong!
    gosh u kno u r amazing i love u so much n HAPPY CORNY SHIT DAY aka V.day!! love u heaps n yepz i'm in tears -sniff sniff- MWAHZ miss u so much!

    By Blogger -*- My Anh -*-, at 7:47 pm  

  • aaahhh u haven't update dis in a while!! HURRY UP N WRITE SUMFIN!
    i love readin ur entries kekekeke!!
    -huggies- missing u heaps n lurve ya MAGGOT! i'm still lookin forward 4 da day where u r pregnant LMAO!
    i will neva get ova dat hectic ass dream -winks- MWAAHHZZ!!!
    sniff ya laterz!

    By Blogger -*- My Anh -*-, at 9:08 pm  

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